To say that theses past few months have been crazy would be an understatement. I quit my second job got a second, second job haha and have been working like crazy. Verbally harassed by my male co-workers at said new job, rededicated my life, working like crazy ;) mom leaving again soon, friends and family 2,000 miles away and lives ending have left me stressed, confused and stuck in a rut.

I hate these feelings i feel. I miss being care free and full of life. I should feel as though I can do all things through Christ who streanthens me, but all I feel is small and powerless. That is why from this day forth I pledge to myself to live my life to the fullest and do what makes me happy. I pledge to live fearless and worry free.

The Plan

* work my butt off for the next 7 months saving like crazy

*take 6-7 months to myself not working but doing online school so i can travel and do what I am called to do.

*after that follow wherever my heart leads me. because if you think about it, what will all our worries and stress be for when we die? everything we would have accomplished would amount to vapor in the face of eternity. so why not live to the max at all times and live out our God given gifts. 

*I pledge my life to fulfill my destiny here on earth while touching the lives of all those around me.

I’m tearing up before I even started ha. I love this woman more than anything in the world. She has bent over backwards to assure that her kids had all that they ever wanted and I couldn’t thank her enough for being such an influential person in my life. I always ask her what was the best thing you’ve done in your life and her response is always “being a mom”. through out my life my mom has instilled so much love in my heart, I can only dream of the day I have children of my own that I can love with every ounce of my being just like my mother does for me and my sisters. I dream of the day when my children ask me “mom what is the best thing you have every done?” and tell them just like my mom tells me “Being your mom is the best thing I have ever done”.